8 Feb 07

Hey,
not written a journal in aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagggggggeeeessssssss
sooo... oh yeah, about 2 weeks after my last journal i started goin out with this guy i met working at Focus, still going strong... arg, valentines day on wed. that'll be an experience... any hoo...
Xmas woz good... better than new year... everyone desserted at new year... left me 2 deal with my sister... thanks guys soz, its ok, really she fd off after an arguement so all was well
...
OU course is goin well... gettin more interestin as it goes on thank god!
am bored...
i shud do summat productive, but i cant b arsed...
fancy some good stuff... only problem being the lack of said good stuff... will have 2 settle for alcohol... *meh*
hopefully party soon... look 4ward 2 seeing peeps

Congrats to passing Driving Test!!!

*************************************************

HURT SURVEY :
Let's see if you can get through it.
If not, you're too scared about your past

Your name:
Hayley

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again!
Yep

How many girlfriends/ boyfriends have told you they love you?
1

Have you ever thought that you were going to marry a person?
no... never really wanted 2 get married

Are you crushing on someone?
Yesh

Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
yeah

Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
not that i no of

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
dunno... only in 1st relationship so ask me if it breaks up

Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
Nope

Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeah

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I don't know

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
I dunno, dont think so

Think any of your ex's feel the same?
not got no ex's

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
dunno, id like 2 think so

Have you dated people who were not good to you?
No... hes great

Have you been in an abusive relationship?
No

Have you dated someone older than you?
Yes... current situation... hes 21

Younger?
Nope

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends what they've done...

Do you Believe in love at first sight?
I dunno...

Do you want to get married?
not really

Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you?
no

Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yep...

Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
Hell yeah!

Have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up with you?
Not got ne ex's

Have u ever flirted with a friends crush?
not that im aware of

Would you believe your ex if she/he said they love you?
not got no ex's

Would you date your best male/female friend?
No... dont wanna ruin the friendship

Have any of your exes called you by a nickname after the breakup?
not got no ex's

If your best friend of the opposite sex went out with someone you knew was wrong for them would you speak on it?
yeah, probably... but its down to them if they wanna listen or not

Do you regret any of your relationships?
with a grand total of 1... in progress... no

*************************************************

3 Nov 06

w00t i got the focus job...
been working there 2 weeks now...
better than oasis by a MILE...
meh...

*************************************************

hmm...

oh yeah, i started a science course with the Open University a coupla weeks a go
tis shiny... went 2 my first tutorial yesterday, at St. Martins College in Carlisle ... woz random
tis a bit crappy at the mo, but will get better... i burnt potatoes in the microwave last week trying to find out the % of water in them, and 2day, i made 2 rain guages that i gotta leave out for 4 weeks

goin 2 a fancy dress party ( ) next saturday... its heroes and villains n i dunno wot 2 go as. ne ideas ne1?
my dad sed i shud go as darth vader... i reckon he's got an obsession *ses she hoo has a darth vader phone in her room*
it'll b a good night... cheap drink, thats ALWAYS good

my mam keeps nagging me 2 get applications for jobs coz my other job screwed up my hours. i applied for a trainee nursing assisstant at the vets bout 2 weeks ago, no reply from them... thats that career outta the window. ive got an application for focus, its literally round the corner, ideal 4 saving money on lunches. ne 1 no ne where other than morrisons thats lookin 4 people?

party planning... we is needing 2 sort out partyness...swashbuckling fairies etc... needing locationisaton and substances of the alcoholic type (etc)
probs b in half term, depends if arses get in2 gear mit zee organisingness of shtoofs

ne hoo...
luv!
over and out

*************************************************

YEY!!!

so... its my birthday!!!
Im 19 today... (god im old)
Im getting my room redecorated... well, i have to share with my little sister and her birthday's the end of this month, so we're both getting it done...
...
wow, this is an interesting birthday... i nearly had cake for breakfast and i wouldnt b surprised if i woz eatin toast b4 i go 2 bed.
...
ne hoo... friday im goin out 2 the narrowbar for a drink (not too many, im driving) then a few of us are goin up 2 jess's... so if u wanna come, feel free 2 just turn up...



*************************************************

Sooo... I got my exam results yesterday.
Lets just say it didnt quite go as planned.
However, i did get offered a place on an alternative course at Nottingham Trent.
The thing is, i dont think im ready for uni yet. I dont wanna do the chemistry course i applied for, i dont wanna do the other course they offered me, i just dont feel as though i am ready for this opportunity. ive been thinking i should take a year out, sort out my head, then reapply next year, and with a bit of luck, more likely a miracle, i might actually have a better idea of what i wanna do for the rest of my life.

What i dont get is, why everyone pressures you into making your life decisions when you're hardly into adulthood. some teenagers cant make decisions anyway, but others do what they think everyone else wants them todo, cocking up the rest of their life...i dont wanna do this, n i dont wanna sit around going 'i dunno wot im gonna do' for the rest of my life! ARG! Why is it so hard to make decisions?!?!?!

*************************************************

places to go, people to see:

[link]





[link]